I Am On An Adventure...

Well, perhaps not so much an adventure as a mission. I'm on a mission to work out who I am, who I'm supposed to be, what I'm meant to do with my life. I've always thought I knew what I wanted to be. When I was about five, I wanted to be a policewoman, when I was six, I wanted to be a lolly-pop lady (yeah, I don't know either...) and when I was seven, I wanted to be a vet. I wanted to be a vet until I was 14 or 15 when I realised that, being allergic to most of the animals under the sun, veterinary practice probably wasn't my best plan. I had a rethink and decided I wanted to be a doctor.

I wanted to be a doctor until I got my Higher exam results, I got the opposite of what I needed to get into any medical school and suddenly I didn't have a plan any more. My friends had all gotten the grades that they needed, some were going to medical schools, some to study dentistry, some to art college. I had to decide in a matter of weeks what it was that I wanted to do now. My first thought was physiotherapy. From when I was about 15, I wanted to join the army and I thought "why not as a physiotherapist?". I'm still not entirely sure why I decided against it, and it's still something that I'll maybe think about, even though I'm no longer sure I want to join the army. So I went for psychology, even though the military don't recruit their own, I thought perhaps I'd end up working somewhere like Headley Court, something I would still love to do. I want to help people, that's the only thing I'm really, really sure of, whether it's in a more passive capacity or in a more direct one, I want to help people.

So I guess this is the part where I tell you where I am now. I'm in the middle of a Psychology degree at the University of Dundee, not getting great grades with little or no idea of what to do now. I don't think I have what it takes to get into a clinical psychology post-graduate programme, but besides that, I don't really know what else my degree can offer me, what more I can do with my life.

I work in a bar as well as being a student, and sometimes, although I joke about it to friends, it really does feel like I'm going to be stuck working there for the rest of my life.

But enough of the negatives! I have an appointment with the nice careers bloke tomorrow so I suppose that's where my adventure/journey/mission really begins...